It's almost ironic that this day falls in the middle of Down syndrome awareness month. We lost twins in 2006. It was horrible. It was the worst day of my life. And it didn't get any easier for me as the months passed and it seemed we were back into our infertility struggles.
After months and months of waiting, we finally made the leap to IVF. There was a lot to decide. I won't bore you with all of the details. But the process was beginning. I had my mid-cycle ultrasound and bloodwork and I then started my shots. After 8 days I just didn't feel right. I took one of my leftover pregnancy tests. Turns out that not only did God not want us to raise the twins, but He also didn't want us to conceive our next child through IVF. I was pregnant... with Micah!
I miss Joshua and Eli. It still hurts to see toddling and preschool twins. They would be four this Christmas. I wrote a lot more about them (and this remembrance day) in last year's October 15th post.
I'd like to ask you to pray for the families who have lost children, whether that be through miscarriage, stillbirth, or and infant death. And if you feel led, light a candle at 7:00pm wherever you are. If you are grieving the loss of a child, I'd like to encourage you to share your grief with God... He can handle it.