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Friday, October 15, 2010

31 for 21... Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

It's almost ironic that this day falls in the middle of Down syndrome awareness month.  We lost twins in 2006.  It was horrible.  It was the worst day of my life.  And it didn't get any easier for me as the months passed and it seemed we were back into our infertility struggles.

After months and months of waiting, we finally made the leap to IVF.  There was a lot to decide.  I won't bore you with all of the details.  But the process was beginning.  I had my mid-cycle ultrasound and bloodwork and I then started my shots.  After 8 days I just didn't feel right.  I took one of my leftover pregnancy tests.  Turns out that not only did God not want us to raise the twins, but He also didn't want us to conceive our next child through IVF.  I was pregnant... with Micah!

I miss Joshua and Eli.  It still hurts to see toddling and preschool twins.  They would be four this Christmas.  I wrote a lot more about them (and this remembrance day) in last year's October 15th post.

I'd like to ask you to pray for the families who have lost children, whether that be through miscarriage, stillbirth, or and infant death.  And if you feel led, light a candle at 7:00pm wherever you are.  If you are grieving the loss of a child, I'd like to encourage you to share your grief with God... He can handle it.


Michelle Z said...

Just saying hi, thinking of you.

Jonathan said...

Thank you for posting about this, Jennie. I still think of your twins often.


paige said...

o my goodness, you've been blogging like crazy & i've been missing out. Just spent a nice chuck of time catching up on your awesome 31 for 21 posts.
We will be lighting a candle tonight for our little ones too. This is a beautiful post.

James 1:27 Family said...

I was in a Bible study a while back and the teacher didn't know that I know you guys and he used your story to teach the lesson. He didn't use your names but I knew it was your story. Joshua and Eli are still bringing people closer to Jesus long after they've gone from this earth.
Thinking of you, them, and praying for joy and comfort.
Much love,

Mindy said...

Thank you for this! I'm lighting a candle too. I love so much the idea of a wave of light...

Rena said...

Thank you. Our little ones are in heaven now, but their short lives changed us so much. It's nice to think we remember them together.

I appreciate your 31 for 21 posts. I wondered if you would do this again this year!

Kris said...

Beautiful post Jennie! In remembrance of your twins, and all those who have lost little ones, I will say a prayer! Blessings, Kris

Mel ~ said...

*sniff* (((hugs)))
Thank you for this post!

Mel ~ said...

*sniff* (((hugs)))
Thank you for this post!